Wednesday, November 21, 2007

it's sha's birthday tomorrow, we did a 'surprise' birthday thingy for her today. not as big a surprise as the last 3 years though. an assortment of cakes from mezza9 was ordered from hongkong and we picked'em up without her knowing. i most certainly wasn't expecting so many slices!! and it was only 4 of us at dinner! haha. thanks james for the treat though!

on a less happy note, it's starting again. i can sense it. it's like a perpetual grey-skied world. sounds alot like dysthymia to me. how ironic, dysthymia is in one of the chapters in my child abnormal psychology text. it was really quite fine the entire day, from lunch with hannah and lea at the marmalade pantry @ hollandv (the wild mushroom and truffle oil quiche was good by the way), to reading about declarative memory at the orchard lib, all through dinner with the girls at sanur. but somehow, after dinner, the mood sank.

why...

why...

maybe it's the thought of how we'll all be pursuing different, separate routes in just 8 months from now. it's depressing.

Friday, November 09, 2007

received an email from a very important friend today. and nothing can possibly describe how touched I was (and still am) by her. girl, u know who u are, and I'm really grateful that u took the time and the effort (that was a long mail..) to pen those thoughts. I appreciate every bit that u said, and I will work on it.

*thanks girl*

it's 1 week to the end of the sem, 2 weeks plus to exams and 3 more deadlines to go. it's already the end of the 1st day of my long 4-day weekend (thurs to sun) and today really wasn't productive at all. tmr will be the start of my 3-day weekend, and i will make it a good one for catching up with work.

it's more blessed to love and appreciate what u have, instead of what u hope to have. this isn't against having hopes and dreams and goals. cos those stuff are important for one to have direction(s) in life. but satisfaction is in the eyes of the beholder. it's not always what u expect of others, what about your expectations of yourself?

random stuff coming outta my head at 3am, but i really do mean what i said. i can't always want others to make changes so as to increase my level of happiness/satisfaction. i wanna be the one to be able to make changes...it's my life afterall.

to a certain girlfriend, it's been nearly a decade since we became friends. and knowing that we've become so much closer really warms my heart :) thank you.