Thursday, January 19, 2006

1 tutorial has messed up my timetable and my outside-of-school lessons.

BOOO.

all because of elang, i now haf a 5 day week...it's horrible! and it's only a 1-hour tutorial on monday! it clashes with my music and i'm in a dead spot now cos there probably aint any other times that can fit both of us :( shoulda checked before i took the mod i know, but there really wasnt much choice. my lecturer was no help at all - he told me that i should take the module next semester -_-

on a happier note, heavenly math is awesome! it's amazing, really, the scope of astronomy and astrology and the likes and it's even more amazing to picture the amount of info we're gg to learn through the sem!! it's tough though, ok maybe it's cos i have not even printed the notes or got down to reading them, but i'll get there this week.

my friend gave me a note a coupla days ago. are we still friends? after what's happened, after we saw how awkward things were 1.5 mths ago, after what said in ur note, are we friends in the thinnest layer of the word, or can we still be friends in every sense of the word? i should have guessed that 1.5 mths might elicit a change such as this, but i didn't really want to believe it. now i have to.

bing wants me to talk, but how do i do that? go up and ask what exactly do u want? or why are things so different now compared to then? or why didn't you just ask....?

this talk has been long overdued for even longer than 1.5 mths. i have to do it. but how.........that's a problem already.

i wanted a new year to mean a new start, a fresh new start, a happily fresh new start. the hols were miserable, is my new sem going to be that way too? :(

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Monday, January 16, 2006

it's monday again..moan day.. but no moans today if not for the ex company i used to work for..they're kinda giving me a headache.

finally had subway on saturday!! absolutely love that place and all the stuff except olives and onions thank you. met daniel for lunch. was late again. sorry DAN! and thanks DAN for helping me with the photoshop thingies. u know how i'm hopeless at programs like that and though u're new at it, u did good :)

we watched In Her Shoes at cini after that. saw the book with the same title on the shelves months and months ago, but just never got around to buying it. well, now i know the story! cant quite believe still that dan wanted to watch the chick-flick. haha.

had a fabulous breakfast yesterday morning with mummy and my 2 fav aunties. plus point --> it was buffet breakfast at orchard hotel. minus point --> it was at 7.30am. !!!!. how early is that! i actually dragged my lazy butt outta bed at 6am! for breakfast! i'm not complaining, it was well worth it :)

got an essay to do now, it's kinda short but my brain's not been exercising much the past few weeks, brain-jam now. everything's just so packed up, and i'm gg back to hall tmr. and i've not packed at all. and there's this essay to do, and oh right, i just said that. and shalynn might not be in my block...noooo! and i'm supposed to haf lunch w mel on wed but now there's singtel duty. and i've not settled my notes or textbooks. and i've not filled up the application form and the deadline is on wednesday.

oh oh....last minute again!!!!!

Saturday, January 14, 2006

went for a run this morning after a really long time. running is supposed to make one feel good and energised and refreshed and basically lift up one's mood isn't it? because of runner's high and the release of endorphins and what-not what-nots.

i think i need extra doses of runner's high then.

somehow, i felt really off and upset after the run. not cos i ate too much and yada yada....and my stomach was feeling topsy-turvy or anything like that. it was more of an internal thing...a mood related issue.

once again, the horrible sinking feeling starts well, sinking in, deeper and deeper, till you feel like you're so stuck in a whole truckload of negative depressing feelings...................................

it's not like i'm completely ignorant to why i'm not feeling blessed and happy at the beginning of the year, but having to deal with it everyday......is not bliss.

i need to cheer up before i end up taking prozac or something.

think lunch with daniel later would be good.

Friday, January 06, 2006

this entire week has seen alot of dancing. not from me of cos. but from mummy....did abit of dance of monday, love it when the music beats just get into u and twirling round and round about the dance floor is so exciting (and dizzy sometimes)! would love to take up proper lessons if i could, if not for time and money constraints :(

had gelare with the band girls on tuesday at citylink. sorry i was so late again!! weiting and huixian even finished their waffles and ice cream before i reached there -_- haha. the ice cream guy gave me a huge spoonful of blueberry yogurt flavour for sample. it was pretty gd but i couldn't resist macadamia nut!! who can!! macadamias.....mmm mmm mmm !!! we did abit of (window) shopping at suntec after that, but that complex just aint so conducive for shopping, with the exception of la senza, i was all ready to spend, but nothing to spend on. how disappointing. met mummy for dinner and did abit of dancing aft that. the rest of the night was with jem at esplanade. along the esplanade and the river rather. it was a beautiful night, with just the right amount of breeze, and negligible creepy crawlies. haha. another late night cos we got home at 330am.

on wednesday we had a family dinner at hotel rendezvous cos chuan wanted to eat their nasi padang. it's good, but it's not my favourite. dinner was sooo quick, why did they haf to eat so fast. dinner was a little quiet though, i was doing most of the talking as usual, meals like that are getting so strained, it kills to even think of what meals will be like in future.

met veronica and kenneth at wisma before we headed to mccafe for a sit-down-and-rest-your-legs session. veronica and i went to zouk after that. nic was supposed to join us but his meeting in camp ended realllll late. in the end, we left so early at 1.30am (!!) and had maxwell porridge for supper. haha, good stuff. thanks nic for sending me home :)

i found the peanut butter place at taka that gwen was talking about!!! it's called TOAST and their BANANA-PEANUT BUTTER SANDWICH is good stuff!! it was $5.05 but once u bite into it...mmm mmm mmm :) Justin--> you're the man, for going around taka with me looking for peanut butter toast thanks!!

guess what --> my slippers decided to give way on my way from taka to wheelock -_- had to get new ones, and the horrible thing was that the pairs i liked either didn't have my size or didn't have my colour...settled for new blue slip ons.

met david on the way. was nice to see him smiling. after so long. he really does look happy. i'm happy for him too. don't know why, but although all we said to each other was hello and where are you going and i'm going to the library/i'm going for dinner, suddenly felt a little lighter as i walked on after that :)

met ivan for dinner at big-o. my bad that you waited so long cos of the shoes incident.. met gina at big-o..she was working there, wat a coincidence. pan-fried seabass with mushroooms were rather tasty and filling..but the highlight of dinner was the love bug mudpie!! couldn't resist a mudpie, especially not when you're at big-o :)

watched narnia again after dinner, although it was the 2nd time, no regrets!!!! i love that show so much and yay i managed to watch it again! thanks for dinner and nachos!! we visited mummy at club 5 after the movie...i'm actually beginning to like that place a little. haha.

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

2005 passed by just like that. awfully fast i say. on the 31st of dec, i still remembered what happened in the beginning of the year. was it purely good memory? or was it cos the events were significant?

quick run through of 2005:
JAN
1st outing w marcus-->meet the fockers
1st lecture alone-->cognitive psychology

FEB
v-day with marc with dinner, flowers and earrings

MAR
8th march outside esplanade

MAY
27th may @ cafe cartel suntec

JUN
blood cafe @ paragon with shalynn-->how we ate, made friends, had fun and suffered
1 day JB trip-->my only trip outta singapore in 2005

JUL
Union camp!!!! Vader councillors are awesome and our freshies are great :)
made some better friends who were great to hang out with

SEP
back to "person of interest" and lower

OCT
talking more to a friend

NOV
12th nov @ the amk bus stop
fun and happy times
giving the attitude to a friend-->screwed this one up big time, shouldn't have done that
sending him off @ the airport
moping over a predicted miserable month of hols

DEC
meeting up with friends from pri-sec-jc-uni-->love you all :)
the email-->???
more brooding
partying @ zouk, dbl o, happy (?!), MoS
swearing off alcohol for a year
hanging out with my neighbour

that pretty much sums up 2005 for me. unfortunately. i seriously cannot think of a single event that made last year significantly good. as i've said so many times before, i'm so HAPPY 2006 is here. it's going to be waaaay Better than the last, i know it, i feel it, and i'm going to make it!!!!

a special something for some of you:

sha and bing --> thanks for your encouragement and support and advice during those awful times, you know when i'm talking about. i was miserable as a nut because of that and u 2 stood by me. i love you babes!! cheers to the start of our 9th year!

huixian, weiting and veronica --> for bringing back the lovely memories we have of vj and vjcsb. for bringing wacky ideas into my life :)

darren --> my dear freshie, you're a good friend who really knows what he's talking about and what to say at the right time. sorry for the numerous first times u had with me haha u know what i'm talking about. thank you for the laughter you've brought into my semester in and out of school :) it's just easy to talk to you about stuff..

kim --> you're a funny guy really, good to talk to too! u sooo haf to bring me to eat loads of yummy stuff. as of now, i can strike toa payoh's bah chor mee off the list cos its good and i've eaten it! we are always eating ice cream tsk tsk, haagen daaz and swensens...what's next man :p

dolus --> i love you all so much. though we didn't meet up so often last sem, i didn't even see some of you while walking around in school! but on the times that we met up for lunch or dinner or suprises, it was still as heart-warming as the first time i knew our og!! looking forward to spending another sem with you all, at lectures (ernest and xuan and ivan), over lunches and shopping (i hope), over celebrations and so much more!

alee --> he doesn't read this, but alee, thanks so much for just always being so sincere and warm to talk to, whether i'm sad or irritated or gloomy. somehow, u always manage to give new perspectives on life and its troubles. u make me think hard and think deep. i'm really grateful for that =)

to those that were not mentioned, fret not, alot of you out there were important in 2005 and are still impt now that 2006 has begun. so thank you for everything, thank you for just being you!!

Monday, January 02, 2006

at MoS on Christmas Eve 2005!!!! that was last year....sounds so looooong ago. haha.

modern memories of VJ:

this is way overdued.... presenting--------clarinet section of pl band. well part of it at least.

yean, lydia, me, eugenia aka donut!

we met at nydc suntec (again!!!). the last time it was at nydc heeren. haha.