Sunday, August 20, 2006

i hate this feeling of being thrown into another environment altogether just like that. it's not new, this environment i mean, because it's already the 5th semester but still, that doesn't stop this horrid depression from setting in.

i can feel it...the way things are sian now, how there's no mood to do anything, not even to get out of the house although i really want to just go out somewhere anywhere. how i cant stop thinking about what's already happened, how i want things to happen again, how i know things will never be able to revert to the way it was then.

it's always fun to know and experience new things because new stuff just add spice and life to erm..life. and new experiences always bring greater fun than older stuff, but it's hard to let go of new things sometimes and go back to the old ways.

i sound like an incredibly old whiny woman but i just have to vent and ramble...pardon the randomness.

not to mention how there were and still are certain issues to think about and these issues shouldn't even exist to begin with. that's what's bugging me i guess. like the more you think of it, the more complicated it gets and the deeper you unconsciously will think into it, and there you go...it gets harder to pry yourself away from it.

please snap out of this soon.