Thursday, November 03, 2005

i have decided.

i will not let others dictate my life for me, not as of now that is.

i want to be able to decide on my own, for myself, based on what i want to do.

i don't want to reconsider and reconsider and reconsider my decision(s) because of the actions of others, and because i usually think things will turn out for the worst, such that i decide not to in the end and eventually come to regret it.

i don't want to regret it this time because such a opportunity comes once in a lifetime and if it slips away...i'll probably not get to experience it this way again.

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i'm going for work and travel usa next summer hols :)

although it'll be fantabulous if a few particular people could go, but circumstances are such that things do not always go the way you want and so u've gotta accept it. oh well.

also, i have to quit thinking about the possibilities of anything screwing up between now and later because it only scares me silly and makes me reconsider, yet again, whether i decided correctly.