Saturday, October 01, 2005

i'm complaining so much these days. symptom of old age? but i'm not even 20! yet! ok, i dun wanna be 20 actually. shall enjoy my last few months of saying proudly that i'm 19!!

the thingy on last sat night has been resolved. thanks to those who asked if things are ok, i really appreciate it :) marcus emailed and i emailed back and he called and we talked. that issue is over. am i always being difficult? i know i am sometimes. but always? am i? i dun want to be known as the-difficult-girl. that's so sad.

am super annoyed by 1 teeny occurence. teeny is not the word actually. it's just bothering me day-in-day-out. weighty issue i say. how many times have i said i wanna lose excesses before a stipulated period and how many times has that NOT happened? tsk tsk. disappointing. disappointed. what with the recent mooncake fiesta (it was a fiesta for me cos mooncakes mmm....irresistable!) and night snacks and suppers. i'm never gonna lose the kilos or the excesses. this cant be happening! even jiahe and yewmun said i look fatter. oh crap :( might as well just stop eating altogether or become a strict fruitarian-vegetablist. this way there'll be no carbos or fats (i think at least) and run alot alot.

but still, what about the side-excesses? wanna be able to carry off low-slung stuff without worrying about odd sticking-outs at the sides! eww.

abit of hall update:
-i got into IHG softball team! that's prob gonna be the onli thing i'm doing in hall. too lazy to join any comms even.
-average bedtime is now 2.30am. it's horrid. i look like a blardy panda walking around zombified.
-thursday is western-food-for-dinner day. corn is great cos i love that yellow maize but the chicken tastes weird.
-suspect there's something going on between my opposite neightbour and the softball vice-cap. muahaha.

i went home this morning cos of music lesson at noon. before mummy left for work, she sat down on the organ chair beside me and put her arms around my shoulder. "my darling, how's school and hall? are you sleeping enough?". a simple question (3 simple questions technically..) but it just suddenly made me realise how much i miss being home, and seeing mummy and pa and chuan everyday.

absence makes the heart grow fonder.

she stroked my hair the way she sometimes does. i miss my mummy...
i feel bad for leaving chuan aside nowadays. never thought i'd miss dear-old-chuan too...