Tuesday, June 21, 2005

i dun feel good now. today. this was supposed to be a good day of rest, a happy day at that. but my mood's been ruined since 9.15am this morning in studio 10.

the verdict's not out yet, no not so fast. but i can sense it, the gloom, the big "F" (no nothing vulgar, just "F" as opposed to "P"). the disappointment, the tears. for the first time in a long time, desperation accompanied me throughout the 15-20 mins in there. murphy's law came into the picture AGAIN. what could go wrong, well, did.

the diskette failed and turned bad, despite the fact that i had just used it 2 hours earlier.
ears got all messed up. i need new ears. those that can hear properly.
impro was a goner the moment i started on it.

i screwed it up.

i can't believe i did that! for all the effort and time and money put into it, 15 mins was all it took to ruin everything. called mummy the moment i stepped out of that place, tears were already accumulating inside. talked to marc aft that, hope i didn't sound too sad over the phone, save for the fact that tears were already rolling down. this sux.

sat by myself at hans after that, glad that the slice of blueberry crumble pie was yummy enough. usually everything tastes the same when my mood is down. had a soup at 4 leaves after that. wasnt feeling so sad on my way home, but still, the mood showed and is still showing all over my face.